God Provides Before Dawn

“Oh goodness, we have not even boarded a plane and God has already shown how faithful He is. Haiti is just going to be something else if God moves like He has here at home.”

I sat in on our last Haiti missions meeting and knew that I was not going to go, not with 910 more dollars to raise by 2:00 pm tomorrow.  After the meeting I talked to Yanni, the group leader.  I actually said to him, “Yanni, I’m not going to Haiti and don’t try to talk me out of it.” He asked me if I had the money would I go, and I said yes that I still wanted to go, but I just did not have faith in this and did not really know if God had wanted me to go in the first place.  He asked of me to not give up until the deadline and called Melissa Johnson (the other leader for the trip) for me and set up our meeting.

I drove to her house in Oakwood and we sat in my car through midnight processing through some stuff- through the real reason why I had given up.  If God did not provide this it would mean that He would not hear me and I could not take that after specifically asking for this- it was killing me to think that God would not hear my voice. This comes back to my parents.  They are not Christ followers and if God cannot hear me then when I pray for their redemption it hits the ceiling.  And all the big dreams I have too- I don’t know what to do because I feel like I cannot communicate with God and I knew I’d destroy myself if I did it alone.  Melissa told me that we do not know if God wants me to go but that I should pray for a yes.  That’s what we decided to do- to pray for a yes.

I left around midnight and pleaded, cried, and waited on God all through the night.  By 3:00 am I only needed $130 more to cover the trip.  I knew I had to ask mom and dad- which was the most painful course God could have given me.  They did not really support me going, and I was then in the climax of my most desperate hour.  I waited for dad to wake up, Melissa had sent a text that she was up praying for me at 5:45 and so I went to ask him with her prayers around me.

Before 6:00 am I had the total cost of the trip to Haiti pledged with my parents’ help.  I spent the rest of next day walking in awe of what God had done.  This whole thing means way more than God can provide money for a mission trip.  He hears me- the mystical eternal God that created everything I can see can also hear my voice.  He declares me righteous through Christ so that He can hear me, and that includes my prayers for my parents.  At different times Danielle, Yanni, and Melissa said that God would finish the work He has started in me- oh goodness, we have not even boarded a plane and God has already shown how faithful He is.  Haiti is just going to be something else if God moves like He has here at home.

-Emily Fischer